It's hard to explain, but I've just been thinking about the transition that's taking place in my life. I've been alive for 23 years. I try to look back on my life, and it's funny how so few memories I really have. When I reminisce, it's almost like watching the highlights. Like if I try to think of when I was 8, I remember telling my third grade teacher that I would be able to get my license in only 8 more years! Back then, it seemed like forever away.
That's just an example, but it almost seems like my whole time on Earth is like that. Just like pictures in time... I don't know, I'm not even sure what I'm trying to say.
We spend so much time wishing that we were grown up that one day it just happens, and we realized it's not all it was cracked up to be. It's just another step. Then we realize we missed out on so much because we had our eyes on the future, rather than the now.
This is lame, I'm pretty much saying what every 20-something says at this transitional period in life.
But back to memories, it's funny to look back on times in my life and realize just how simple everything really is. The highlights of my life all involve God. My trips to Guatemala, feeling the pure joy of salvation, the humbling experience of having the opportunity to preach his Gospel is many different locations... that's the greatest moments in my life.
The most miserable times in my life were the times I tried to do things on my own.. when I turned to drugs, partying, alcohol, and the pleasures of this world, I experienced the emptiness this world has to offer.
It's so easy that it's kind of funny. There's no greater life than a life with God.
I'm going to be 24 years old this year. I'm nowhere close to what I thought I would be doing when I was a kid... but that's okay. I have no idea where I'll be in the next 20 years... the next 10 years... the next 5 years! When I think about the future and what I'm going to do, it scares me to death. But then I remember that I am in God's hands. He'll guide my steps, he'll make a way for me, and I'll enjoy life. Not the future, but the present. God has great plans for me... now! I do know that I'm tired of worrying about tomorrow and being a grown up, from now on I'm just going to love life.
...that's a lot of rambling.
